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Chan Jian Da
15 years old
15th December 1993
jian-da@hotmail.com


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 Saturday, November 28, 2009
画龙画虎难画骨，知人知面不知心的含义

To " Mikaw ":

画龙画虎难画骨，知人人面不知心。有些人前面做一手背后做一手，表面上看来顶好的，其实一直在背后不知怎么害你，说你的坏话，人莫人样。我就遇见一个这样的人在我身边，在我和好朋友之间相互调拨。让我们产生误会，当我和朋友开诚布公谈的时候，我们才发现他一直在我们身边彼此受相互的说坏话。想想真样的人真让人气愤。所以一定要小心身边这样的人，别让这样的人靠近你。要看清一个人不能只看他的外表，只听他的一面之词。一定要深入的了解一个人的心。" i read this somewhere, somehow. and i thought it was really nice, and true.

i think all humans are judgemental. we always think that this particular person is hypocritical because this thing happened. and we think that this person is bad-tempered because that thing happened. so at the end of the day, we become so biased in our views, that we forgot to take a closer look at them. they are not that bad after all. we get so carried away with judging people, yet we always forgot to judge ourselves. we tell people how hypocritical this particular person is, but sometimes, i think we are the ones who are being hypocritical. okay, what kind of reasoning is this, you might ask. my answer is simply, i have no idea. this thing just pops into my mind, and it really makes alot of sense. just take 3 minutes off your busy life, be it watching videos on youtube. just take that 3 minutes of your life and think about it: have you ever been caught in this situation where you feel that someone is talking about something bad about you, yet you are unable to do something? have you ever been caught in this situation when you hears your friend talk about what someone did to her/him or she starts talking about what this person did and why she hates her and everything? ask yourself, have you been biased in your views all these while? have you judged someone because of a certain event that happened or because someone told you something about her/him? have you?

i know this sounded like any other expository introduction and etc, but at end of the day, i hope you understand something, that the world dont just revolves around you and you alone. there are people around. everyone is imperfect, including yourself. it's just the way people hides their imperfects that makes them look perfect. but everyone knows, there's always a flaw in every single art piece.

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Friday, November 27, 2009
One Bad Day = Many Bad things

i don't mean to be so crabby and upset at every post i write.
i want to post about happy things too.
but for that to happen,happy things have to come.
but my life is nothing happy.
far from happy.
and bad things seem to attract bad things.
when something bad happens,more will follow.

i have lost 3 nights of sleep.
and i'm extremely tired now,
but i know that if i don't vent now,
i'll probably suffer a stroke or heart attack in my sleep.
and never wake up.
not that i want to,
i sometimes believe that it's my time to go up.
but i know it's not,
so no worries,
or rather for some,
unfortunately,
i'm not going up anytime soon.
God won't allow me in either.
i haven't suffered enough.

i'm over being bitter.
i think i made that quite clear in an earlier post.
i don't want to be bitter,
and i know how not to.
but i can't help feeling totally disregarded and invisible.
tomorrow i predict will be worse.

i am 'proud' to say that I, ME, have made a total cuckold out of MYSELF again.by agreeing to be responsible for things i am not capable of.

i want to split myself up too.
but i know that i can't.
and even if i can,
no one will even notice me.
for i am just one insignificant person.
i didn't mean to pile up my schedule again,
but i just had to.i don't have a choice.

how does it feel to treasure something more than others?
how does it feel to treasure someone more than how much the other treasures you?
how does it feel to be expected by others to do something...and then fails?
how does it feel to be just a substitute till something better comes along?
how does it feel when your efforts are just taken for granted?
how does it feel to be left behind?
how does it feel to be not appreciated?

i sometimes wish i had a cold heart.that way i won't be such a busybody.and poke in places i should have just left alone.or interfere in affairs i should just not step into.or care so much that i only make myself upset and disappointed

i want to be indifferent,
maybe then i'll have time for myself,
and start to appreciate myself better.

but that won't happen,
cause i'm just plain stupid.
unless someone or something hurts me really bad.
or rather some oneS or some thingS.

i am halfway towards having no heart at all now.
so why do i still feel the hurt and the pain?

Searching for inner peace


Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Basketball Mania

Maybe I am very sentimental - I am always so engrossed in TV dramas until the extent which i may weep. Lol. Sounds so immature but this is me... Finished re-watching de 28 episode "My MVP Valentine". Cant believe the whole show is so WOW! It was exciting at those bb matches esp the last episode with Qisui vs YunShang...Haha. Those stunts... maybe my friends are right. 160cm as the height of a person to play GOOD bb is really imposible. Well be an audience or fan might not be a bad thing too. Should focus on racket sports my forte - badminton/tennis (doubles) / table tennis... I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FAT...... SOS


Saturday, November 21, 2009
THE MAGNIFICANT CLASS

"我们这一班 (CL) ~ 4-5 2009 "


Credits: Ms Lim -thks 4 ur help to take the photo + 12 lovely students + Beloved Mdm Tay!

Mdm Tay had retired =(
So I decided to dedicated 1 SPECIAL post to this SPECIAL Teacher who warmed the hearts of 16 4-5 peeps.
Actl the school announced it when the Sec4s are not around, so cannot listen to her farewell speech. Well - She was an aspiring CL teacher - I knew I would fall in love with CL with her humourous and lively lessons. I had one less to worry ~ CL. Idunno why I got this weirdo feeling that after I gotten back my CL Chinese result (my first A1 *_^) I missed her lessons badly. Sometimes she is cute...sometimes she is damn serious.
Those 简报...作业...作文...改正
Omg! Hope there is an outing where we can interact together again... Anyone keen to organize one and ask her out? Perhaps: LY?


Friday, November 20, 2009
BLACK & WHITE

My classmate once told me that the first post of everyblog must be very meaningful in order to sustain the interest and "long-term" support of any "fans". Well, life really suxs these few days - I really miss those days where I mugged along with my companions and dearest classmates who were there for me - always. It seemed like there is nothing to do all these days. Surfing the net...watching MTVs... and picking up a new sport - basketball. q(@_@)p

Well, actl bb is somehow interesting. My interest for bb sparked off when I chase after "篮球火" and re-watching "My MVP 情人". I felt this excerpt quite interesting (adapted from My MVP 情人): "Many people dont know that the diameter of a basketball is 25cm, while the basket has a rim of 45.5cm in diameter. To all basketball players, getting the 25cm basketball into the 45.5cm basket is a long and arduous journey. But once they achieve that, the world open to them is limitless." Haha, really sweating out is kinda fun " ^_* "

I love my blogskin!!! I feel myself drawn to it for it simplicity with only 2 colours - Black or White. Well, if human heart is as pure as white... Often other colors had elude the "purity" white has to offer... Red/Yellow/Green.... may be beautiful but these 2 colours esp white warmed my heart.

K-Boxed on Monday at Clementi with my classmates haha. Well, I was a disaster for some songs. Dunno why w/o the real singer voice, I feel so lost and insecure. The food there v.oily... I love my Milo Dinosaur - looks so cute. Well *~* sang the best (Shall nt expose her identity - not nice argh). Still got Sore throat saga after that singing session.
Tuesday went on an eating spree with kx and mel - my stomach almost cannot make it... then go sci centre walk walk those lame galleries and shop at IMM... Oh my god- I lost my face there at guardian, I was just scanning some beauty products for the face to get rid of my stupid pimples, and the beauty specialist came and intervene... Omg, when she knew that it was not kx and rather it is me who wanted those stuff...Her eyes rolled- I damn paiseh run out of the shop...Awrksssss..

Well - I love my 2-4 friendss. They are so adorable when they are 13-14....with their bashful smiles and jovial personalities. lol. So there will be a CG for a big reunion...well dunno why eventually push here push there and eventually until me... haiz a burden and new responsibility. Over 20++ people ok with it.. still sourcing for any event or venue for our long-anticipated party... Er. 4-5 also not bad la. 4-3 friends BEST!!!

Well. It is late. Peeps I will update daily de... Cya.